Saturday, September 13, 2008

Letting go...



It has been a tough day. You see I am rummaging through my boys' older toys and clothes to sell at a local consignment Sale. It is very difficult for me to do this. I know I will be crying as I give up some of their toys and outfits from when they were babies. Sounds funny huh? I can't keep everything from the past couple of years. I guess part of it stems from me wishing we would have another child. My health won't allow it and adoption is a distant memory. Recent developments have made me realise that I need to be thankful for my two beautiful boys and be there for them.

I will miss the first time they noticed when they pushed a button of a toy, music would play. Nolan would take a quick loud breath and smile. Braydon would crinkle his nose and laugh. I miss their "juicy" fat legs that would peek through their clothes. (Braydon still has juicy legs). I will miss them singing their ABC's with the Leap Frog phonics bus or Caterpillar. I will badly miss the Classic Pooh crib set that both of them used as babies in their cribs. But, it is time for the "older" things to make room for the "new" things. And maybe, just maybe....

another Mommy or Daddy will make memories to last a lifetime with the "things" I have held on to so dear. After all they are just things.

***UPDATE***

After looking at everything I am pulling out about 6 items I just can't depart with right now. I think Hubs is having a hard time too. Two of the items are pieces of clothing that the boys wore to have their first Christmas pics in. Nolan was in a velvet green outfit with a reindeer and Braydon wore a snow baby blue sleeper with a reindeer on it. I can't get rid of their Leap Frog Table either....I like to play with this still!

4 comments:

Auntie Maureen said...

I know exactly how you feel. I sold a lot of Lauren's and Matt's things at a resale shop as they got older. It was tought "letting go". There were a few things (toys, clothes, even certain pairs of Lauren's shoes)that I just couldn't part with. So, these things I put into a box and stored them. How much enjoyment I now have seeing my granddaughter playing with her mothers and aunts toys, wearing their clothes and even shoes. It's like my children growing up all over again. Don't forget to put some "special" things away for your grandchildren.

Jenny said...

Awww! I know it's hard. You are keeping some of the special things, right? I cried on the way home from dropping off Suzi's rainforest swing, and I was even a little sad about the clothes and things we sold this past time. But it was nice having money to buy her new things and see how happy they made her and how cute she looked in the clothes. Are you volunteering? I'm working Saturday the 20th from 1-5 if you want to sign up for the same time. You get more money that way and can shop a day early.

GrandmaKathleen said...

It is so difficult to let go. I, like Maureen, have put aside some of John Michael's and Mark's toys and books that I will pass on to Nolan and Braydon and maybe someday to Mark's children.
Save some special items as Maureen says for your grandchildren. I know it seems a far way off, but eventually it may happen.
That consignment event that you have in Anderson sounds like a great way to make some extra money.

Vicky said...

Jenny, I don't think I will be able to volunteer. I am already volunteering for the Breathe Easy Project for children that day from 11-2 with Rhonda. I'll be promoting nebulizers from JG's and enteracting with children. We have a picnic in Spartanburg around 3-4. (someone John works with invited us)

Auntie Maureen & Kathy...I have a few small things put away and I will also put them in a box. Thanks.