Kidney Transplant Anyone?

As many of you know I have been on the kidney transplant list since December. I have known I would need a transplant for about a year. The lack of posting is because I have been busy on my other blog Sjogrens and Me updating a lot of activity on that aspect of my life. I normally keep my blogs separate because even though both are what defines me...I personally have to keep them apart.

I am happy to say that I have a match and he is currently being tested as my living donor. His name is Jordan and he is a good friend's husband . He is my hero regardless how this turns out. His whole family is.

I will keep you posted.

Another Trip Down Memory Lane...

These were taken just shy of 3 years ago. The boys have changed, yet still look the same compared to the last post. What do you think?





I guess Braydon has done a bit of the change....

Thursday 13

Thirteen things I need to do before vacation...

1. Laundry....about 12 loads. UGH
2. Get a haircut.
3. Pack a suitcase.
4. Pack a suitcase for Nolan and Braydon.
5. Pack my husband's suitcase so he doesn't drive me nuts packing a few hours before the trip.
6. Find our goldfish a home for week or so.
7. Clean the House.
8. Pay bills.
9. Breathe
10. Go to a birthday party.
11. Try and figure out what the boys will be for Halloween.
12. Find shoes to match my dress.
13. Did I mention to breathe?

Recipe for Smiles...

4 cups kisses
2 bags of hugs
a dash of tickles
and a bit of love for taste

Put all ingredients in your arms and keep there for eternity...

Letting go...

It has been a tough day. You see I am rummaging through my boys' older toys and clothes to sell at a local consignment Sale. It is very difficult for me to do this. I know I will be crying as I give up some of their toys and outfits from when they were babies. Sounds funny huh? I can't keep everything from the past couple of years. I guess part of it stems from me wishing we would have another child. My health won't allow it and adoption is a distant memory. Recent developments have made me realise that I need to be thankful for my two beautiful boys and be there for them.

I will miss the first time they noticed when they pushed a button of a toy, music would play. Nolan would take a quick loud breath and smile. Braydon would crinkle his nose and laugh. I miss their "juicy" fat legs that would peek through their clothes. (Braydon still has juicy legs). I will miss them singing their ABC's with the Leap Frog phonics bus or Caterpillar. I will badly miss the Classic Pooh crib set that both of them used as babies in their cribs. But, it is time for the "older" things to make room for the "new" things. And maybe, just maybe....

another Mommy or Daddy will make memories to last a lifetime with the "things" I have held on to so dear. After all they are just things.

***UPDATE***

After looking at everything I am pulling out about 6 items I just can't depart with right now. I think Hubs is having a hard time too. Two of the items are pieces of clothing that the boys wore to have their first Christmas pics in. Nolan was in a velvet green outfit with a reindeer and Braydon wore a snow baby blue sleeper with a reindeer on it. I can't get rid of their Leap Frog Table either....I like to play with this still!